sEarchiNg??

searching for;

• true friends
• lovable friends
• friends who are willing to be my BBF
• not double-faced people
• the one whom I can count on
• the one whom I can share anything & believe my secret will stay as a secret
• the one and only one best bud I'll have

but it is hard to find someone like that in this world.. 

too hard.. 

I only have Ganapathy Paapa in my life as my best-est!!!

 

feeLinG hElpLeSs

things has gone to a worse condition each seconds and minutes,
have no clue of what is happening around me,
each time I had learnt to grow stronger and stronger by placing a stone in my heart,
even if I don't wish to do so,
I have to do it..

life around doesn't seems promising,
people seems to be fake all the time,
people around seems like double-faced each moments,
there are so less people who know's what friendship is & what love is..

hoping I could have the courage to overcome the days that is coming,
hope that I would have enough mental balance to go through all this over again..

time @ situation?

some say that they have to change due to two most famous reasons:

1. time
2. situation

indeed these are the common reason one will deliver once they have changed..
yet,
my mind could not accept that people can change easily,
it is all beneath one's personal deed and option either to change or not..
there is no reason to blame other factors for your changes..
as YOU CHOOSE TO CHANGE & CHANGES HAPPENS AS YOU WISH TOO..

but,
if you had changed,
accept the changes and tell the truth,
accept that the person with you might have difficulties to adapted to your changes,

if,
the person could not accept it,
you have hurt her/him,
you have change to worse,
you have label yourself to something else,
you have forgotten your promises made earlier,
you have made her/him cry...

it might be rough at first to accept such changes,
before you change your

1. behaviour 
2. attitude  
3. personality

you should learn if the you are able to accept such changes if it occurs to you..
how if you are going through the process where you are facing your dear one changed??
think before you blame and argue with them!!
THINK! THINK! THINK!!

loVe As a nEEd @ wHaT?

love as a need or as a compassion?
blurred as I began to wonder what love really is..
people say that they love someone so much but,
saying I LOVE YOU SO MUCH only is not enough.
people fail to understand it as for them they think what they doing is the right thing all the time.. 

there is something beyond it after all,
the feeling shared must be equally felt by both parties,
the love, compassion and also feeling belonging should be felt all the time..

for some,
they felt that by just saying the three words only is enough,
just messaging only all the time is enough,
buying gifts only is enough,
bringing out for date is enough,

but,
there is something more than that in love,
compassion,
understanding,
being with each other either in good @ bad time forever,
respecting each other,
keep your promises made at first last forever,
never comparing your love with others,
never blame your love for your mistakes..

the person who can't understand all this is not the one who love's truly,
talking only is not enough...
it's about ACTION & KEEPING YOUR PROMISES ALIVE TILL THE END!!

cHanged??

i tend to be blindsided by person's behaviour towards me..
in brief I was fool to think that people will remain the same all the moments..
they do change & blame the situation to be the cause of changes..
indeed they change because their feelings had actually changed and they want to change..

who am I to object it??
it's their own choice & their happiness too..
their changes is a great REALIZATION!!
I'll grow stronger & even better..
thanks for everything :)

atTituDes

attitudes is little thing that makes big difference..
there's lot of attitude issue's I've seen so far..
gross!!! ridiculousness!! childishness!!
behave as how your age is & you will gain respect from others as well..
there are numerous attitudes that i STRONGLY DISLIKE;

1. blaming others
2. pretending in front of others
3. doubled-faced
4. fake
5. taking everything for granted
6. using others for their own purpose & benefits
7. flirting with others since you are committed to one
8. laziness
9. showing sympathy to gain attention
10. no mercy at all

I can't think more as there's lots to list.. just wish that people always show their true face and their personality towards others rather that showing attitudes! its very important to generate good attitude, a good heart, as much as possible. from this, happiness in both the short term and the long term for both yourself and others will come